3 words, that jolted me wide awake, and forced me to halt and seriously evaluate all that i've done so far.

in the past, i used to take success and failure seriously, abit too much perhaps. but somehow, over the years, i seem to take things too casually, abit flippant even.

in primary school, As were the norm, then on entering secondary, scored badly on tests initially, but still managed to do alright. the same goes for JC. is it cause of these that i thought it's ok to be less serious during learning so long as the end results come out to be still good? or is it i hate to admit failure, so i use a flippant attitude to hide how much i fear to fail?

i dont know.. but now i wonder, am i serious regarding my life? i dont feel i was serious towards driving.. what else am i not serious at?

i suddenly feel the world spinning, kind of losing my orientation.. i dont think i've even cherished an ambition or a dream for at least 6 or 7 years now..

abit down.. cause i feel i 不认真